Curse of Fortuna- part 2

Noticing that he had my interest my father began to smile that "I gotcha smile". I imagined it is the same smile that a hunter has right when an animal that he has been tracking for a long while falls into his trap.
"The curse of Fortuna!"
I was confused and was trying to understand what he was talking about. Before I could get the question formulated in my mind to ask he began to answer the question.
"You are probably wondering who is Fortuna, but you have to sit through a story to learn, and hopefully in learning you will avoid the curse."
Now I was really confused, and really interested, so rather than saying anything I just shook my head letting him know that he should continue. When he got the signal to continue, he took another sip of his coffee and got to his tell.
"This story is autobiographical, so pay attention and you may learn a thing or two about your old man. Before we get to deep into the story, let me tell you about Fortuna. Fortuna is a metaphor in this story. I will describe it as a she so that you can get a basic understanding about her. Fortuna is my nickname for Fortune. You see I have discovered that one of the weaknesses of the men in our family is the fact that we fall in love with Fortuna. We seek her out and engage in a whirlwind relationship. We court her and in the process we benefit greatly, until the fateful day when she abandons us. It happened to myself, my father, and according to my father his father. Fortuna smiles on us  for a short period, but one day we wake up and she is gone. Then we spend a large part of our life trying to win her favor all over again."
Feeling the need to insert a question at this point, I raised my hand for him to pause and inserted.
"If she is so bad why pursue her?"
Scratching his head and then is short beard he smiled and responded.
"It may sound crazy, but their is no love like hers. She showers you with gifts an opportunities that no other being in the Universe can match. When it's good is't great, but when it's great it is beyond description. The business opportunities she brings are incredible, the love affairs she opens for you are incomparable, and the material things that she provides blows your mind. Unfortunately it is all temporal, and when she leaves most of the things you acquired leave with her."
He really caught my attention now, and i had to slip another in, before it slipped my mind.
"Why does all those things leave with her?"
"Excellent question, that I have been wrestling with for years."
“You see Fourtuna comes into your life Like a whirlwind bringing gifts with her, but these so called gifts are connected directly to her. From my research I have discovered that she does not do this on purpose. Because she is the spirit of fortune she is followed around by abundance. So when she leaves the gifts leave with her.”
Just as he was about to continue I had to throw my hand up in a stopping gesture like I was directing traffic.
“Hold up pops, you never answered my question!”
After years of conversating with my father I had learned that if you don’t stop him he will jump around your question, and before you know it y’all are talking about a whole new topic, and by that time both of you would have forgot, him the answer and you the original question.
“What question?” looking at me with a sincere look of confusion.
"Why does everything leave with her?"
"Oh, well to make it simple the person she was with did not earn it. Everything that you receive why you are in your whirlwind relationship came with her, so it has no reason to stay with you. You didn't earn it. in other words no sacrifice, no reward. You find that you were simply a ward of Fortuna."
"Damn, that is kind of harsh!"
"No son, that is simply how it is."
Pausing to take a sip of his coffee, and then focusing back on me.
"Know my goal is to teach you the secret of getting Fortuna to chase you, rather than you spending and wasting your life chasing her.
Pausing again, and leaning back in his seat.
"Are you interested?"
I didn't even pause before I gave him a response, it rose on it's own.
"Yes sir!"
Smiling and taking another sip.
"Then first we need to understand who Fortuna is, then once you have that understanding you can apply it to your life, and break the curse. You see I spent a great deal of time trying to win Fortuna back. As a matter of fact I spent so much time pursuing her that I neglected the most important people in my life. One day in my late forties I decided to use my mind, and began asking questions. By that time most of my children were grown and I was struggling. I first looked at the shambles I had made of my existence, and then I took some time to talk with my father, and found out he was not in my life for the same reasons that I was not in your older siblings lives. Then he revealed that his father had been the same way. They didn't call it the same thing I did, but it was Fortuna."
I couldn't help but to wonder whether or not my father felt any regret for his choices, Just as I was about to ask he continued with his tell.
"After looking at my life and my discussions with your grandfather I continued my search. I dedicated all the time that I used to pursue 'Her' to pursuing answers. By the time you were born I had settled down enough to be around you more than any of my children before you, even though you don't believe that."
He paused long enough to let out a laugh, as if he was reading my mind.
"I dove into reading and stumbled my way to some answers, and began applying those answers to my life."
Leaning into the table as if he was about to tell me a secret, he asked a question.
"Who is Fortuna?"
Pausing and looking at me as if I was supposed to answer.
"That is what you are supposed to tell me."
Leaning back laughing, and looking at the ceiling, and then looking back at me.
"That was a rhetorical question. Fortuna is the latin root of the word fortune. Now the tale I will tell you about fortune or as I call her Fortuna is my version of the story. You can do your own research, but anyway... Fortuna was the youngest daughter of Wisdom. At the time of Fortuna's birth Wisdom was not held in the highest esteem. As a matter of fact she was a single mother with 9 other children. Wisdom was romanced by Fear, and fortuna was born. Upon the end of the romance when Wisdom began to see the true nature of Fear she ended the relationship. Fear being who he was decided to take his new daughter, not for the child's best interest, but only to spite Wisdom.
Raising my hand again to interrupt him.
"Pops, why did Wisdom allow Fear to take her baby?"
"During those times the child belonged to the male, and it was his right to take his child with him. Of course she put up a fight, but she didn't have a leg to stand on. The fact was that she was a single mother with 9 other children."
Fear took Fortuna to a far off land where he raised her around his older sons (Envy, Pride, Greed, Sloth, Lust, and Anger). Needless to say that her life was hard. Being exposed to Fear and his progeny for the first 15 years of her life. She suffered all types of abuse, until she became old enough



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